it's pointless talking to me...
i don't like the way my life is...i'm just existing...nothing's happening...i just wake up everyday to find myself in the same cycle...i don't want my life to be like that...i want to change it...but how? i don't really know how...can someone help me? wait...if someone helps me...then they will just dictate everything that i will do...judge everything that's wrong with me...list my mistakes...i better just keep everything to myself...i wish i can't feel any pain...i wish i just disappear...like i never really existed...is that even possible? i know it's not...that's why i'm so depressed...because i want to...i don't want to die...but i wish i'd never really existed...so i don't have to suffer...so i don't have to meet everyone that has been a burden to me...so i don't have to deal with everything that causes me pain...so i don't have to try and be holy...so i don't have to be judged by other persons...i wish everything would come to an end...
Posted at 09:38 pm by antitrust999
